You have chosen the Tower and the 7 of Cups. The Tower shows that this has been an unsettling time for you. There have been sudden interventions and your foundations have been uprooted. It's as if things have been struck by lightening and we have no say over the matter. This is because the Tower is ruled by the planet Mars and this is to do with the energy and drive and assertion that's going on in everybody particularly the male side of everybody. You've been going through some emotional confusion where things have not felt that they are right. You can't see straight. You've had a scattered focus and you've been feeling the need to clear the clutter out of your life. Perhaps this is a recovery from a mental illness which has created some illusions. You've been seeing yourself as someone sinister and your imagination has been running away with you. Now things are not right. You must focus on one thing at a time and prioritise getting better. Perhaps you need some professional help here. This is happened because you've had a need to defend yourself physically, emotionally, and intellectually and spiritually and you've had to define yourself as somebody who is a separate individual in what's felt like a potentially hostile world. Perhaps your fight has been about your family, your country, your politics or your religious principles but either way it's been about self preservation. Your battle has probably been disguised under other names, different tactics, emotional blackmail, depression, anger, fear, but you have suffered and the suffering is only behind the need to sort things out. You've experienced conflict between a need for self assertion and a longing for emotional closeness. It's been hard for you to express yourself and it's been hard for you to be healthy. This justifiable anger made you fearful that others will reject you or find you unlovable. Those early experiences that have contributed to where things have antagonised the whole situation. You must work to your own ideals and be sensitive to yourself and others and have a realistic acceptance of human limits.