You have chosen the Tower and the 9 of Swords. The Tower is an unsettling card for it shows that things have changed quickly and suddenly. This is to do with the 9 of Swords. For up to a point you were someone who was always fearful of the results and paranoid about what other people would think. You realise that this mental anguish was not productive and was draining you mentally, stopping you from moving forwards. This was a lack of confidence and it was all about being involved in other people's affairs so that you had to distract yourself from your own life. Now you've realised that you don't want to be a wallflower and that you want to be a leader rather than a follower. You have changed. You suddenly found this surge of confidence and energy that is making you determined to assert what you want for your own life. This is the male side of everyone for the Tower is ruled by the planet Mars. It can be very unsettling and quite unnerving for everything you know has changed but it's a chance for you to now fight your own battles. Mars is about standing up for yourself and being satisfied by nothing but first and best. It's about getting rid of the fear that makes us feel that we are terrified to lose face or be envied by others if we win. You've now realised that you're special and that you've got some interest at heart that means that you're determined to be realistic about your own life. you're fighting for your own defence when it comes to your mental and spiritual well-being and your seeing yourself as someone who's a separate individual and quite unique. You're no longer a victim or a coward and you're expressing your individuality by defining your own goals and values in the most effective and efficient of ways. Well done.