You have chosen the Hermit and the 9 of Swords . The 9 of Swords shows that you are involved in lacking energy for unfortunately you're not resting. If you're getting sleep you're still not resting. This is because you're feeling mentally anxious. You're worried about the results of something, fearing what will happen and slightly paranoid about the reactions of those around you. You need to take responsibility for your own thoughts and feelings and actions and to let other adults do the same for you cannot influence what happens or cushion the effects of their life. They are responsible for their own actions and must take responsibility. You must look at the order within your own world and create something for yourself that feels that you are in control. By re-establishing control you will find that you are a happier person and that you are not mentally drained by the effects of those people around you. You allow other people to take on board their problems and drain away from you the energy that you have causing you to feel exhausted and helpless about all the things that they dumped on you. The Hermit is asking you to take some time out and to look for a place where you can be alone with your own thoughts and feelings and to enjoy your own company for a while, to look back and remember the people that were important in your life and were inspiring enough to you to make you change into the kind of person you are now. Someone who is wise, intelligent, knowledgeable and experienced. You must base all of this upon the person you've become and accept that you are responsible for who you are and not to take on board other peoples' problems, for you can do nothing about it. For once, you try to help and things don't work out; they look to blame which is why you're feeling so negative and exhausted. Try to offer a comforting, listening ear and just agree with yourself that you are happy to listen but you must protect yourself for you have your own problems. You do not have to be unkind. You can offer a sympathetic ear but save your energies for the order and reestablishment of your own chaos within your own world without taking on board other people's troubles.