You have chosen Strength and the 9 of Wands. The 9 of Wands shows you're really trying to defend yourself without success. This is usually linked to physical matters when it comes to work. Things are becoming too much of a problem. You're doing too much. You're physically worn out. You really need to take a break, but you're so stubborn. You know you're fighting a losing battle here. You need to give in but you won't surrender. You're so proud, you're continuing to protect what you feel is rightfully yours. You feel oppressed but you know that you're going far too far and doing far too much and that physical illness will come along to you if you don't take a break. Stop trying to hang on and protect what's already got out of hand. You're just exhausted, battered but still battling on. Why? It really is time to look at your inner and outer Strength. It's time to look at why you're so proud and that you will not give in. You're so passionate about your cause and you're determined to see it through to the end. You're being asked to try and control things, particularly when it comes to your powerful emotions. You've got to realise when you're beaten. You're someone that's so proud and so used to getting your own way, you work so hard, everything you do is about experience, practice and the fact that you feel that you're in a privileged position because of experience, but you're used to making things happen because you always have and this is the first time that you feel that you cannot manifest what you want. Well, put it down to experience on this one too. Not everything, no matter how much you push it is going to work out. You need to know it's time to let go so you can hang on to the Strength that's there. You're being asked to have inner Strength, not outer. You've got both, show the inner Strength, know it's time to be humble and walk away otherwise you're going to end up with no Strength at all. You're going to be ill. You need to take care of yourself and realise you cannot do everything alone and to put your Strength and energy into something that's more productive. This is draining.